Well, That Year Went Fast

31 August 2014

Just as I was about to give myself a pat on the back for having a brand new post all ready to go today, I realized, that somewhere amongst my little blogging hiatus, I completely missed a pretty big milestone that happened over here, which is that this blog has been around for a full year. A full year! I think I'm just going to go ahead and give myself that pat on the back after all because I'm actually pretty impressed that I've kept this going for as long as I have. You see, me and hobby's don't usually have the longest of track records, but I guess that just confirms that this blog means more to me than just some regular hobby.

I've seen a lot of people do big giveaways or talk about what they've learned throughout their time of blogging when their blogs reached certain milestones, so I sat down and tried to figure out what I wanted to do today, because anniversary's or birthdays or whatever this milestone is considered should be celebrated a little differently. And while I wish I had a list of things to share that I've learned, the truth of the matter is, I'm still learning every single time I come here, which I'm sure makes anyone who doesn't blog scratch their head in confusion with that sentence because blogging seems pretty simple enough, especially when you're lumped into a "lifestyle" category like I am. But it really is a lot of work, a lot more work than I thought it would be. But it's also been so, so much more fun that I thought it would be, and I can honestly still say that a year later. 

When I skim back through my older posts, some of them feel like they were written yesterday, while others feel like they were written years and years ago. I've shared vacations, lots of weekend recaps, some embarassing stories, makeup obsessions, some things that were heavy on the heart and, believe it or not (not, for those who know me), even some recipes. And while this blog hasn't captured everything over the last year of my life, it has captured a lot of it, and I will say that's been pretty incredible to look back on. What's also been incredible throughout the last year is some of the people that I've "met" through this blog and the great support that I've gotten from them, even when I've never actually met them at all. If you stop and think about that for a second, that really is amazing (and makes my heart have all of the happies). 

So, with that said, there is one thing that I wanted to make sure I did today, and that was to thank you all for following along with me over the last year. Before I started this blog, I never really understood why bloggers thanked people for reading because I guess I just assumed that people should blog because they wanted to, regardless if anyone was actually reading or not. But, the one thing I have learned over the last year is that it's the positive and supportive people who are reading and interacting with you that truly makes blogging even that much more enjoyable. So, a big thank you to YOU!! 

Happy one year, blog! Now, let's see if we can keep this going for another great year! 

post signature

A Much Needed Weekend For The Two Of Us

20 August 2014

Well, it seems that I have formed a little addiction over the last few days. And when I say little, you should probably know that I'm flat out lying because there's been nothing small about my obsession with the movie, Divergent. That movie has sucked me in like no other, and I've spent the last three out of four nights watching it over and over again, all while asking myself the entire time why I have to beat everything I love so much to death. I'm just going to go ahead and blame it on the mysterious and dreamy Four because, he, my friends, definitely deserved to be on my tv screen as much as he has been. Have you watched it? Or read the book? I'm hoping to get the book some time this week so I can fuel my addiction and love for it even more.

Okay, so now that you have a better understanding as to why I'm only getting around to talking about my weekend today, on a Wednesday, here's a quick look into it. Although I've been starting to feel like my old self again (you can read about that here), I still thought a relaxing weekend out home to spend some time with my mom sounded perfect. And, as it turned out, it was exactly what I needed. 

ONE// When I woke up Saturday morning, it was a cold and dreary one, but instead of shoving on yoga pants and a hoodie like I normally would to go home, I opted for something a little less gymish but still a lot comfy. I scored the cardigan in the picture above from the Gap a couple of weeks ago for nine dollars and I loved how it looked with the lighter denim jeans.

TWO// As usual, my best bud came with me and kept me company for the two hour drive. It's so funny because as soon as we get about a half hour away, she gets so excited and starts running in the backseat from window to window. She loves seeing her nan as much as I do.

THREE// My home, and still my favourite place. Growing up, I definitely didn't appreciate just how beautiful it is where I live, especially in the summer time. Being completely secluded and surrounded by trees with a pond right near by, it really is the most perfect place.

FOUR// It's also the perfect place to go when a certain someone desperately needs to blow off some steam. Besides mine and my mom's normal routine where we eat chips and watch movies together in the evenings whenever I visit, we spent the majority of the weekend doing fun things with Charley. And I think the picture above shows just how happy she was when we left Sunday evening.

And that definitely made the two of us!

post signature

It's Not You Blog, It's Me

15 August 2014

If you may or may not have noticed, I've been pretty absent around here lately. And while I wish I could blame it on all of the fun things that I've been doing or the busyness of summer in general, I can't. Sure, I've been kept pretty busy over the last month and I have been doing fun things, but I just don't think that's the reason. To be honest, I think it all comes down to me and how I've been feeling.

From the very first moment I started this blog, I never came here unless I wanted to. Truly wanted to. If I ever caught myself having a rare "not feeling it" moment whenever my laptop was flipped open, I'd immediately close it again and do something that I actually was feeling. Because I started this blog for pure enjoyment. And I wanted to make sure that I enjoyed it every single time I came here, regardless if that only was a couple of times a week.
But, the thing is, I've been having those "not feeling it" moments with a lot of things lately. And not just with blogging. It's kind of hard to explain, but I guess the best way I can is to say that I just don't feel very content, no matter with what is that I've been doing. And if you've ever been in a similar situation, you know just how hard it is to come here when you're feeling that way and write about the things that you're doing that you're also feeling that way about.

I have no idea what's been causing those pesky little feelings. All I know is that I just haven't been feeling like my normal, happy-go-lucky self. One who wants to do anything and everything. One who feels satisfied and motivated and one who gets enjoyment even out of the most mundane things. Not one who comes home in the evenings, sits on the couch in silence going through a list of things in her head that she could do, hoping that something will generate the tiniest bit of interest, only to wind up with nothing but an extra hour gone by and a completely scratched off list.

When you know that something feels "off", yet you have no idea as to why, you start focusing on it and you start searching pretty damn hard so that you can feel like your self again, which in turn causes you to be even more aware of the fact that something's not right. Almost like running on a treadmill or running around in circles, if you will. You're constantly moving and you're trying really hard the entire time, but yet when you're done, you're in the exact same friggen place from where it is that you first started.

What's ironic is that over the last few days I actually did want to come here and write, but the only thing that I wanted to write about was this, this rut I'm in, or whatever it is that you could call it. Every day I'd stop myself though, because I really didn't want to share it here. Although you could say I'm a "wear my heart on my sleeve" type of person, I'm also not one to run and pour my heart out to many others, if that makes any sense at all. But, tonight, I'm just going with it because I figured, well, why not? Why not take advantage of something that I actually want to do and have a lot of interest in doing? Why not be honest and share how I've been feeling? After all, this blog is about my life, which means that there's going to be times when the not so good moments gets mixed in with the good ones too. 

I will say that over the last few days I haven't felt like I'm on that treadmill quite as often and I honestly think it has to do with trying not to focus on how I've been feeling as much. You see, while being an overthinker and thinking about every little thing as often as I do can have its advantages, the majority of times it can be just a downright, plain curse. So, instead of thinking, I've been just doing. And I think it's been working. I'm taking it as a good sign that I'm here now because, although the topic is not the happiest of ones, it is actually making me feel pretty happy....and very, very content! ;)

As always, thanks for reading but today, more importantly, thanks for listening! 

post signature